As I sit here watching my daughter sleep so peacefully in her pack-and-play, I have such mixed feelings about this announcement. It’s with excitement and nervousness that I say I’m going back to work.
I recently accepted a position with a university here in the city, and while I know I will love going back to work, it will still be tough leaving my babies every day. I have been home with them since they were born.
There are many things I’ve been considering since I accepted the job; perhaps most worrisome is how I will continue breastfeeding. When I went in for my all-day interview, and I asked for some time at lunch in a private room, my future co-workers were more than accommodating. I knew that was a good sign.
I don’t know yet where I will be pumping each day, but I don’t think that will be a problem. I intend on renting a second pump to leave in the office, and I’ve already collected a few extra sets of pump pieces so I don’t have to worry about bringing them back and forth.
But I keep doing the math. My babies will take at least three bottles while I’m gone each day. They’ve typically been drinking 4 ounces when given a bottle. That means at least 24 ounces of milk a day! Can my body keep up? Can I keep up? I have some milk frozen, and I know I will continue to pump while at work, but I still worry.
I have a couple of weeks to get used to the idea of leaving the babies – and finding someone to watch them! And hopefully, by then I will have fewer worries about my supply keeping up. We’ll see.
It is also with a heavy heart that I say this is my final post for Bravado. It’s been such an honor sharing my story, and hearing from and learning from other women’s stories. Please reach out to me via Twitter, I’m @karamat. Or we can connect via Facebook at facebook.com/karamat. Thank you for all of your support. I wish you the best.