I was very fortunate when we got home from the hospital. Both my husband's parents came to stay with us for several weeks to help out and having them with us was a godsend. Thanks to them, my only responsibility was my daughter. I didn't have to make one meal, the house stayed clean and we got to bond. It was the best gift anyone could have given me.
In addition to that, I got a home visit with a lactation consultant! She came very highly recommended and I was really excited to meet with her. Even though my daughter was a champion breastfeeder, her enthusiasm was doing a number on my nipples! I was prepared to tough it out and just prayed that it would get easier as I grit my teeth every time she ate. When the lactation consultant showed me what I was doing wrong and she latched on painlessly, I burst out crying! Through my tears, I kept saying “That didn't hurt! That didn't hurt!” I was so relieved and so full of hormones that I simply couldn't stop crying. The tears started all over again when she expertly swaddled her and my daughter instantly became serene. I had been trying and trying, and like Houdini, she escaped from the swaddle no matter what I did, upsetting us both. I felt like I was letting her down but with much practice, I'm happy to report that we have achieved success with both latching and swaddling and she is one happy baby!
Sleeping is another story. I didn't know my under-eye circles could get that dark! There is no concealer in existence that can mask circles as dark as mine! That first week was a life-changer and I didn't feel the weight of my new responsibility as acutely as I did until night. I don't think I got any sleep when we first came home. Between staring at her because I simply couldn't believe she was actually here and staring at her to make sure she was still breathing, I may have closed my eyes for a minute or two.
My husband? As soon as his head hit the pillow, he was snoring. Thankfully, he took the day shift and in between nursing sessions I actually scored a couple of naps.
My world suddenly got so much smaller – everything revolved around her. I couldn't bear to be more than an inch away from her and her every cry caused my ears to perk up and I was instantly on alert.
My life is forever changed and I wouldn't have it any other way.