I have a confession to make: I don't like to pump. I don't like the way it sounds, I don't like the way it looks, and I definitely don't like the way it makes me feel. Putting my daughter to my breast is the most wonderful feeling in the world. I have grown to look forward to every nursing session we have together and I am even more convinced that breastfeeding is the right choice for me. In contrast, pumping feels very cold and mechanical and I can't help but feel like I'm being milked like a dairy cow.
Thanks to my amazing husband, I'm afforded the privilege of staying home with our daughter so I don't have to stock a freezer because I have to go back to work. Yet, I know that for those women who choose it, pumping is a lifesaver that enables them to give their children the liquid gold that is breastmilk.
It took me several weeks to get over my prejudice towards my pump. It sat in its pretty, fancy bag forever before I summoned the courage to use it. Even though I wasn't looking forward to doing it, I didn't want to break the machine on the first try. My overactive imagination had turned pumping into this complicated, delicate process that I would surely screw up if I wasn't careful. Luckily, I figured out the physical mechanics fairly quickly and I will admit it was pretty cool to see the bottles fill up with milk. I was in awe of my body and its abilities and I smiled when I saw firsthand what was responsible for those adorable fat rolls on my daughter's arms and legs.
Even so, I'm still not a fan of the pump. But seeing my husband feed our daughter warms my heart and getting to leave the house by myself is a downright celebration! Who cares that I'm only going to the grocery store? And thanks to the pump, I had my first sip of wine in over a year!
I have friends who have never used a pump and others that swear by it. I'm thankful that as mothers, we have options to determine what works best for us. While I still feel like I'm being milked every time I hook myself up, I'll gladly pay that price to give my husband more time with our daughter. Plus, there's a mani-pedi gift certificate with my name on it that I can't wait to cash in – just as soon as I pump!